Triciafawn, I'm so sorry you are going through such a hard time right now. Others will be along soon. In the meantime you may want to check out the stickies at the top of the page and spend some time reading other threads. You'll find a lot of sad stories that are similar to yours. You know you didn't cause this, you can't control it, and you can't cure it either. Your boyfriend is a grown man making lots of decisions that are not in your best interest. Maybe you are on the verge of learning a lot about yourself as you work through this. I know I did. I learned a lot about myself as I worked through, (and am working through) my issues because of my involvement with an alcoholic.