i wish i could just fast forward two months and show her i can control this but i slowly with these things, one day at a time
It would be nice but recovery unfortunately dose not work that way. All you can do is show her one day at time that you are changing. My wife went through many times where I quit and relapsed over the years. Something we have to realize is that we are not the only ones that suffer because of our disease.
The sleep thing (or lack of) was one of the toughest things for me but it is much much better now. Keep up the good work.