Hey all, well day three is here.
last night got a couple of hours sleep, pretty restless but at least two's better than what i have been getting ie diddly squat!
Got home last night after the longest day at work i can remember, got some food inside me got myself a shower and a shave so at least my outside doesnt match my inside today
Spoke to my wife again, who is obviously going through it all with me, i wish i could just fast forward two months and show her i can control this but i slowly with these things, one day at a time as our mantra goes. She's visibly had her trust with me rocked which i can understand and at the moment im pretty needy for affection but unfortunatly the two dont mix and can cause friction.
I cant trust myself with money at the moment so ive suggested getting my wage paid directly into her account for the time being not only as a gesture but to remove temptation and to ease her mind . Guess its not the most manly thing to do but at this stage who cares about all that