Hey!
Tiffany,
We are alot alike. You have been given some wonderful advice here. I know that you will continue to do what you feel....as I do.....I to have dated others and been treated like a Queen only to continue going back to the man who hurts me the most. WE need counseling.....I have been in it for 4 years now......try to work on yourself and what YOU want the most.....it also helps NOT to expect anything from the other. He is your drug......your addiction. The highs and lows are part of what pulls us in. It's scary, I know. I just saw my ex after 1 1/2 years.....I thought I would find closure but I have fallen all over again....thought I would be fine.....not so. He has stolen from me, verbally abused me and uses me to fulfll his needs. I will keep you in my prayers. Read Codependent no more by Melody Beattie. It may help explain some of the things you are going through.
Hugs,
Figure