Hey John, thanks for being honest. Now let me be honest -- sounds like some resentments creeping in there against those cops. You are doing the right thing, call your sponsor and get to meetings.
Do NOT let yourself get into the "HALT" mode -- Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired... bad place. Boost up your meeting attendance, pray to your HP, and stay close to your sponsor and others in the program.
This too shall pass. I HATE when people tell me that when I am in the middle of my 'stuff,' but it is just the truth... you will come out of this funk on the other side, and stronger for it.
ken