Hello Realization88, I am an alcoholic. For many years I have tried "controlling" my drinking and also tried using "willpower", unfortunately, neither of these things worked for me, I just ended up worse than ever. It worries me that you are talking about "getting your control back" and that you have "amazing willpower", obviously, you do not want to give up alcohol altogether. There are a couple of agencies out there that will teach you "controlled drinking", it works for some, not for others. However, I have never met a "normal" drinker who even considered controlling their drinking or using their willpower to stop. Good luck.