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03-10-2008, 12:58 PM

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MssDgtr7

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Join Date: Feb 2008

Posts: 11

I need to learn how...

Hello Again.

I've not been here lately, because I have been working on some things, but not too many. The wall is what I put up when I feel the need to self-protect!!!

Being the mom of an alcoholic son, and wife to a recovered alcoholic husband, revisiting this issue is causing me to feel a bit anxious, because it has been dormant inside me for quite a number of years as far as the memories go. This was a definitely hard time in my life many years ago, and coming back to this is a must for me, but also a very hard aspect of my life to come here and deal with. I use the color green, because as a believer in God and in His Christ, green represents a time of growth and this is what I want to do.

I want to learn how to become a better mom and love my son, in spite of his choices to drink. I do love him because he's my son, but find such a struggle in how I show this to him. I know he wants acceptance just like anyone, and as my son, I give him that acceptance "as my son." But his choices are not an acceptance in my life, when I know how depressed he's been and how the battles he faces are getting worse for him due to his alcohol.

I didn't think revisiting this was or could be so hard for me, but it is much worse than what I thought it would be for me. And...this is why I want help. I want to be able to overcome this for myself, despite his choices and negative actions sometimes whenever we do see him. So, I want to grow through suggestions, books, education, and any way that would be acceptable to me according to my faith. So, those who understand what I'm trying to do here, will understand how and why I come in this way for a hopefully good conclusion. I love my son, and will never stop loving him. I will continue to give him those motherly hugs and kisses when he comes to visit, a listening ear, advice if asked for, and to try and see his point of view as he sees it whether or not I agree with him.

Your input would be very much appreciated. Thanks to you all!!!

MssDgtr7