hi silent and welcome to SR
Sounds like your in the right place, most people don't question there drinking like that.
Question is what are you going to do about it?
Do you want to stop?
If you do then uee this site as support and get a prgram here is a list
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-programs.html
If your going to quit see a Doc and maybe go to a detox.
Kevin