thanks lateeda, i'm strong in a lot of ways...not soo strong in others
your right, my head knows, i'm only as stuck as i make myself.
another thing that has been holding me back is that i haven't told me one brother about any of this and for some reason i struggle with telling him that i'm having problems in my marriage. he's the one with the kids and i'm just afraid of what his impression will be or the affect it will have on the kids or my relationship with them.
i don't know why this is so difficult for me? i've told the rest of the family and they know.
i don't know why i struggle so much with this one brother? why i can't admit failure to him as you said? i really have to look at the dynamics in that.