"i have to admit that i've never put my feelings and myself first. it is so foreign to me. normally, everything would depend on him or others in my life? i've never put my needs first. i guess i don't know how to react. i'm a crab out of my shell."
this is all new to me that i create my own world and that its all about me. i just don't know how to handle that. it's very overwelmeing.
like i said i'm just shocked by the enlightenment this week has brought.