One other thing that I thought about is the fact that you are just as addicted to your sister as she is to drugs. She uses drugs to escape whatever pain the drugs are covering and you use her to escape the pain of having to let her go. Been there, done that and it only prolongs the inevitable. It is extremely painful to let go and I won't lie to you about that. But it is less painful in the end than holding on and on and on to something that really is not there anyway. When the pain of trying to help your sister becomes more than the pain of letting go, you will find a way to detach. Same thing for your sister. When the drugs no longer work for her than she will find recovery. But just like we tell you to let go and you still continue to hang on because you are not ready, the same goes for your sister. Hugs, Marle