Will I ever be able to move on without looking over my shoulder to make sure that there's nobody trying to screw up what I've worked so hard for?
That question rings a bell with me, though not because of addictions. I'm sure everyone can relate to it on some level. For me, it's because of traumatic events from my past. It took a long time and a lot of therapy to get past paranoia, and onto overall caution.
I see flags now that the old me would have ignored. Some are yellow and I proceed with caution. Others are red and I do a 180 on a dime.