highvolt I could have written your opening post in early Sept. 2006, the short of it is, I was lost and had no idea what to do, saw a doctor who put me into detox, detox told me if I wanted a chance to stay sober go to at least 90 AA meetings in 90 days and get a sponsor, I did that and they told me if I wanted a chance to stay sober I needed to work the steps with my sponsor, I did that and I am sober and happy today and am working with a sponsee today who has 10 months sober.
Thanks to AA I can honestly say that life is great and getting better every day.