I think that I've said this somewhere else on here but I feel it's applicable in this situation as well. These people, including myself enjoy reading your babbles, your rambles, you whines, your momentary lack of sanities, and just about anything that your mind can come up with. These people have been nice to me and helped me more than I thought possible. Please keep rambling, it'll help. I'm battling opiate addiction and all demons associated with. I'm sure you know that hurting loved ones is just a fun side effect of substance abuse. It has taken, and is taking, me time to be completely honest with myself and with the things that I post on here. I'm here to chat if you need.
Keep posting and stay with it. I hope tomorrow is your first sober day. You know that you can do it. It will suck and suck and suck but it's doable.