Hi Matt, Welcome to SR and thanks for posting! Your post was great to read...self honesty and some tears can be the beginning of the healing process for you.
I, too, never hit a "so-called" rock bottom, but like NM said, I could see oblivion not too far in the future. We were preparing to go on a family vacation, and I thought I just want to remember this, I want to see the looks on my kids faces when they are playing in the ocean waves, I want to see my husband relaxed and happy (he has a very stressful job), and, I WANT TO BE PART OF IT and REMEMBER IT! I knew if I didn't do it then, I would just drift farther and farther away from my family...and to me, that is more of a "rock bottom" than jail or fines or whatever else. So, maybe, I pray, you've hit a "bottom" for you, and that you will stick around here with us, helping us all get and stay sober.
Welcome, Matt.