I'll check it out Tellus. Thanks. I was pretty bad while drinking in that I would go off my anti-depressants so that I could drink but I've started taking them again and I think I may soon be able to quit smoking as well.
Right before my wife gave me an ultimatum, I had lost my job. Out of nowhere for reasons of restructuring, I found myself jobless so that really got me down because I NEVER expected that.
I feel bad about the stuff that has gone on between my wife and I and the rest of the family. How I treated them. Things I said. I need to apologize to everyone but I haven't been able to yet. I'm been thinking about what I can say to everyone but I haven't found the words yet.
I do feel closer to my family now.