This is only a question you can answer. What I do know is that time and time again upon returning to AA, I’ve had folks tell me that they found out that staying sober was much easier than getting sober.
I hope you followed Carol’s suggestion and reread your original posting. Ask yourself this, if it was written by someone else and you were reading it for the first time does it sound like a social drinker to you? Perhaps before you step up to the nearest bar to try some controlled drinking, why don’t you give a few more meetings an honest chance? What have you got to lose? (Oh yeah…Your hard won sobriety that’s all.)