HighVolt,
I'm new myself... If you need to, you can find the Big Book online through google...
I know what you mean about the screaming demons. What I'm learning is that they don't last... I guess you could say they get hoarse and fade with time.... I read one person's post here who states in their experience that the urges are all but gone after a few weeks... They aren't easy to ignore.... But it's easier than continuing with our habits.
Good luck to you. You're not alone.