I've been taking a walk down memory lane myself in the form of a memoir class I am taking. Been writing about things when we first found out she (AD) was using. It is amazing what we have all been thru and how far we all have come in our own recovery.
But speaking for myself, I have no intention of stopping praying; and I do much, much better on a daily basis when I allow myself to have hope, then when I am feeling hopeless. My God is loving, caring, greater than me AND greater than the disease of addiction. sometimes I think, "Is that just a form of denial?" but the answer I always seem to get is "No way Jose! Keep praying and let God do the rest!" so please have yourself a hopeful day in which a loving, caring, powerful God surrounds you with love.