I agree with lightseeker, nobody can tell you what to do. You have to follow your heart and gut. Some times we know what we need to do but it hurts to bad to do it.
I didn't lean on God at all before this, infact at one point he was the one I blamed for the pain in my life. Now he is to be the only one I can turn the worry over to, and other than some how just flat not loving my ABF any more, God is my HOPE. Nobody else can say let me have the stress of worring. It's easier than you think.