Highvolt, early recovery is really difficult because of the fact that we have to deal with all the stuff we've been avoiding. For all of my adult life, I hadn't dealt with my feelings. It was overwhelming to finally have to face everything and to know that there is nowhere to run and hide. All you can do is to move forward. Of course, you cannot change what has happened, but you can live the life you choose, today, and for the rest of your life. You can do this!