I give up
I have moved back to the north east after burning my aparment,, loising my houses, losing my carsm going bankrupt. I was chaising a dream and all the while drinking and doing coke and chasing women. I was makeing okay money but partied all. I just felt like I wasn't making enough.
I came back 2 years ago and knew my HP had a reason. I really didn't ahve clue
What do I do? Get straight? No I find a women who is more messed up then me. Hey, why not, lets add gambeling to the list. What the fxxx was I doing in a Casino?
OMG, do I need help or what?
I quit smoking 13 months ago and never looked back. I had my last drunk 4 weaks ago. I don't want to go back to drinking. I know that I cannot do it alone. Tommorw I will find a meeting. I give up.