Jerect,
I'm sorry that happened to you, but your attitude sounds very good. Your HP has a plan, and obviously that meeting wasn't in the plan. Disappointing? Yes, but you keep trying to find one. I know your HP will lead you right to where you belong. He did that for me.
And keep reading here. This is a great place to read, learn and post. I have always used this board, along with my meetings, to work on my program.
You keep at it, Jerect. I'm proud of you for trying. This is the first step to getting your life back and you can do it.
Hugs and prayers,
Hangin' In