Wow. I thank you all for all for your warm and heartfelt welcomes to this site. It means more than you probably think. I have started to look into Alanon meetings, but I'm so skeptical! I'm so afraid to walk in there, and I'm not sure why!! I'm a very outgoing person but I don't like talking about my problems. I'm good at writing down how I feel, but once it comes to the words leaving my mouth, I'm horrible!! I have that whole, I don't want to bother everyone else... I'm not the only one going through things and there are so many more people going through things right now!!! ARGHH I just haaate this disease and I'm trying so hard to distance myself from it. I moved out, but she still calls me everyday, says she loves me and I just have this feeling of emptiness when she says it.. how can I not say I love you too?? This is my mother we are talking about.. ugh. I'm just at a loss.
Thank you all again for taking the time to write back!! It made me have that warm and fuzzy feeling inside..
~Sara