Thanks for the support. Well I didn't drink yesterday and I don't plan to drink today. I'll make a few meetings this week and I want to be able to see my counsellor next Friday and be able to say "none" when he asks me about my drinking for the week.
I guess I have to get honest with myself like I hear at the meetings. I've been fighting this for forty years and keep trying to keep my drinking options open. I'm fortunate that it hasn't gotten so bad where it's cost me, and I haven't hurt anyone other than myself. I can see where it's taking more control of me though, as I have this daily discussion with myself about whether I will drink or not. More often than not despite all logic I find myself planning to drink and drinking.
So today I will resolve to just not drink, and if that argument comes up in my head I will tell myself to put it off until tomorrow. Then whatever I put off for tomorrow I will resolve not to think about today.
That's all I can do. Today I will just deal with today.
Thanks for listening.