First Step..
This is really hard for me. I don't really know what to write, except that I know I have a problem with alcohol and I want to post something on this forum tonight, while I'm feeling terrible from all the drink, because I'm scared that when I feel better tomorrow I'll forget how bad I felt and I'll just start all over again.
I have been drinking every night for five days, and have been drinking heavily for about two years. I just want to stop but I'm scared in case I can't. I realise how illogical that sounds but that's how I feel.
I'm also ashamed of myself. I can't face AA meetings because I'm ashamed, that's why this online forum appealed to me. I just really hope that I am able to cure myself.