Hang in - it's going to get better.
Some of it sounds like 'old habit' stuff coming into play -
the 'oh! that's a feeling - quick get something to numb it!'
One thing that helped me was- to remember ....
You are not your emotions.
You FEEL your emotions.
You are not your habits ...
your habits ... perform for you.
You are not your thoughts -
you are the THINKER of your thoughts.
I dunno. helped me.
At 47-49 days - there's a lot going on.
The pink cloud is fading.
The body is trying to heal up.
Stored toxins are skwirting out all over that have been stored for months or even years.
A system that's been sedated - is trying to run itself after however long being controlled by an outside substance.
Good for you hanging in!
Keep talking to yer sponsor - it's SO worth it.
It DOES get better.