Checking in to say that today I am feeling better. I think some of what I am experiencing is being very tired from work. January happens to be our busiest month and I am really being pushed. I slept for a solid 8 hours last night, woke up this AM and prayed for help. I'm glad I didn't drink over the way I felt, but I sure wanted to.
I have never felt like this before, and I honestly don't know what I am doing. I keep asking people at AA if this is normal, they probably know what I am going to ask them before I say it. I just hope and pray that this will soon be behind me.
Also, 43 days ago if you told me I would be praying daily I would have called you crazy. It really truly helps me to feel better, and to relax a little bit. This is not something I ever would have done when I was drinking.