do not look back, look ahead. you did the right thing, never doubt it. i wish i had all of this insight when my 36 yr.old son started using at age 17 maybe he would not be so deep into it today. that is why i have his son in a group home. work your recovery, you will need it when he comes home.try to do things for you while he is gone. relax, he is in good hands today.prayers,