Hi and Welcome! How wonderful for you to look for sobriety so young! You can spare yourself so much pain...I chuckled to myself at the line "each mourning I would stroke off a day. 30,29,28,27" do you see the freudian slip 'mourning'? See for me I did that every year for 2-3 months after another DISASTROUS festive season and I was in mourning! It was only when I found the support and program of AA that I fully embraced sobriety and it was a joy morning!
Keep posting, keep reading...and I'd recommend reading the big book of alcoholics which is available online google it, some great stories - lots of experience strength and hope. Hope to see you around a lot more!
Cathy31
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