Almost a year ago today he came back from rehab. was going to stay sober. didn't. he's close to being dead soon. somewhere in the last eight months i started to shed him from me. it's like the drowning man pulling you down. it's not easy. i miss the old him. i despise the alcoholic him, and i have separated the two. i will never see the old him again. and the acoholic will die soon. its just sad and i had to move on. when he dies it will hurt. but had i stayed that would have hurt more and longer. wish you well