Hi there (((Baxter)))
I'm sorry things are erupting again. It seems the holiday season can bring out the worst disfunction.
I've had to go back to the "basics" many times.
Acceptance is the first always step for me as it allows me to make more sense of things that no one would be able to make sense of.
I hope your days begin to get brighter soon.
(((Hugs)))
Cece