As the Queen said of the year Diana died, this was my annus horribilis
True WantsOut! And the advice given in Wants post is hard to follow!
Hope
Angel.... honey hang in there-please do not shut down on us-keep posting and letting out what you feel inside and know that you are not alone in this-
Maybe start to look around at those "thousands of offers" and grab onto to just one-do not forget about you!
Al-Anon and counseling have helped to guide me through rough times and be more aware of my life today-I may not always grab those chances and slip up once in awhile but that is ok-but being afraid is not something I could choose to live with in my life anymore-
There are choices out there try grasping onto one and not letting go-keep the faith