OOAL, there is a book, by Emmet Fox titled "The Sermon On The Mount."
It certainly helped me a lot to differentiate between organized religion, God's or HP's laws and man made laws.
I understand your dilemma. I know it is very difficult to accept or understand the acts of some in "the name of religion."
Today I belong to no 'organized sect or religion.' Does not mean I do not live a spiritual life, far from it.
I am sorry you had to see this and hope that you can overcome it and find your path. You have said you will not lose your faith, that is great. I do not believe personally that faith has anything to do with organized religion.
I do believe Emmet Fox's book may help you.
J M H O
Love and hugs,