((out)) your faith is shining. Your own thoughts and concerns is HP's light.
Like so many others, I used to be a member of a church, long ago I decided to listen to my heart, not someone's interpretation of what my heart should feel.
If I were to ever find a church that was filled with all kinds, then I probably would feel confortable there again. My ideal gathering would not be defined by who someone was, what they had done, what they had on, or what they had. It would be defined by what they were seeking. It would be the poorest building, with the richest heart. I feel that HP's house is in our bodies, minds and souls. I visit it every day.
My only advice would be to pray about it, and listen to your heart.
B