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I knew a of man that had One stiff drink every night at 7PM. After 30 years of doing that, when he was in the hospital for an operation, he started having signs of DTs/withdrawal. He was addicted to his habit of one stiff drink.
I know a man that can go months with no alcohol but if he has one beer, it can lead to two and once he has had two..he won't stop til the night is over or the beer is gone (that would be me) I would classify myself as an alcoholic because once alcohol is added to my system..I don't have any control to stop at just two beers for the night. I was never addicted to alcohol, I just couldn't control it once it was added to my system.
The best test I know... Do you control alcohol or does alcohol control you?
Middle of the night beer runs...Well I would say that alcohol was controling me.
again, it depends, and that's the main reason
i'm not sure if i'm alcoholic or not.
i tend to plan everything.
if i plan to go out and get drunk with my friends,
then i'll indeed get drunk as planned and when the bar closes
i'll certainly seek other places to get the so called "last beer(s)".
by opposite, if i plan to drink just the minimum acceptable like
at dinners or work meeting, i'll just drink slowly and control myself.
moreover, as said already, if after 2-3 beers i eat something i
instantly loose the desire to drink more.
middle of the night beer runs, yes, that's what worries me,
that's not normal.
i start drawing, drinking a beer, then feeling inspired, drawing
and writing etc, then switching to music, and no matter what time
is it, i feel fully awake and in need of more booze, even if it's 08.30
in the morning and i'm drinking since 12 hours (i'm a slow drinker).
all in all when in pubs i drink just for fun.
when alone i use alcohol like a sort of introspective drug, sort
of psycadelic and indeed the mix of music and booze can be a sort
of "trip" in some cases.
so i don't know what to answer, alcohol controlling me ?
sometimes yes, sometimes no.
it's still unclear.
i'm sure if a go back to a 9-to-5 job i would only drink in weekends,
but still i would get wasted during holidays when i'm free to drink
the whole night, being with friends or alone.