Redside, Step 4 can be painful as we explore the unseen deep resentments we may carry, but it is also an inventory of the good things we have in ourselves and your compassion and recovery shine through all this, with your awareness of why you feel like you do.
We don't resolve all our conflicts in Step 4, we just identify them and prepare to give them to God as we work on ourselves and our recovery.
Thank you for sharing this with us.
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