((((dw))))),
I know how insane I got before I allowed myself to get distance from my H.
Even if you do not want a divorce from your H you most likely do need some space and time to get yourself on track.
It is a very, very loving act to not let someone hurt you. Let the voice of your peace inside yourself be heard.
You keep wanting him to understand something or trying to understand something of him and ya'll are just so entertwined that you are both hurting eachother really bad. It is hurtful to the other person to allow them to hurt you.
You are both F-ed up you are as bad as he is for putting up with it.
love ya,
lisa