Give AA another try if that is your chosen method of recovery. I know that all of the times that I've went there were no judgments and I was always welcomed as a fellow traveler on the road. (I also think they liked me cos I would always read out loud when asked LOL) Just go and see and if it doesn't feel right for you, maybe you could choose another type of recovery or go to online meetings. Do whatever you have to do no matter how silly/strange you might feel it is. That's what I do---I drink a lot of water and I try to come here at least once a day. I've also made myself stop and consciously think when I'm wanting a beer. So far I'm talking myself out of it.
Good Luck to you!!
