I got sober at age of 22 and it was a bit tough being that young
and actaully being legal to go bars or club hoping and what have ya.
I also relapsed 3 years ago after some lengthy soberiety.
People come and go all the time in AA...maybe there's differents
folks now ? yeah...i didn't want to go back to NA or AA either.
But the thing if it is...i needed to talk to another recoverying alcoholic that
could understands me...mmm for the most part just listen to me.
You don't have to do anything in AA..you already know that,
sometimes..we meeting charectors in there.lol
I can't even think in my head of lasting happy times in my childhood.
I have glimps of it. i don't know what it truely feels to have a
good childhood or experince it...so me going back is a little bit narley.lol
I can relate to the progression and the awaerness of it after a relapsed.
I do know about the guilt and shame and wishing i wasn't an alki.
I do totally understand and feel what you are saying.
I think what you're saying is....acceptence is a son of a B%[email protected]
I think one of the most happiess moments in my life is when i'm sober.
I was sober, i was there. i felt it, I experince it.
Sadly, I felt more pain and heartaches while i'm sober too.lol
But I lived it. I'm alive throught all of it.
It's been a little bit rough lately...but i can't drinking over it.
Drinking and using has narley effects on my body and mind..
It makes me crazy and depressed as hell...Do you get like that ?
I hope you make good chioce today to better your future and get well.
tell your kitty sorry...don't know how to write in catz.lol
all i know is meow....