DeLynn, I just thought I would throw down my experience here FWIW. I have a 3 year old son and I found it VERY hard to get to meetings. I have gone in the past, and was not ready to hear. I went again and found the first one to be the same, uncomfortable. But, after you go a few times, it gets better. In my situation, I cannot get there when the only one in the area that lets kids come meets due to my work.
But like everybody else said, by being brutally honest, seeking help through reading and praying etc, you can go far. The support and information on this site may have been by far the most helpful to me in helping me move forward through the "stalls" in my thinking and action.
So glad you are with us. No matter what you choose that is right for you, I found, if you just keep moving forward...even if it is alittle tiny step each day, then you will be stretching toward healing...
Hugs to you.