Thankyou so much to all of you, your words are what I just needed to hear.
I know what needs to be done...it's just being able to put it into action that I find difficult, turning my back on anyone in need is soooo allien to me.
I am trying to stay blinkered and remind myself of the awful things hes done to us...the one that hurts the most is when he emptied my young son's bank account one week after he had died !!!...That should be enough to stay strong and draw the strength that is needed.
I really appreciate your understanding and send you all my love xx