It took me a long time to be able to enjoy other kid's accomplishments. I felt so angry and sad that my daughter is not the one in college, that I am not the parent with a close relationship with my daughter. It took a while but things have changed for me in the last few months. I have found that I still feel sad when I see big families together especially during the holidays. But now I can feel happy for those kids that are making something of their lives and I can look at young, healthy, happy people and not feel an enormous amount of pain. I remember when I was young and there was a girl in my high school class that had everything. I so wanted to be her. Until the day that she died in a car accident at the age of 24. That was when I stopped wanting what other people had and was just grateful to be me. I try to remember that everyone has tragedy and pain in their lives. It just is in a different form than mine. Hugs to you and I hope you feel better soon. Marle