Originally Posted by
Rusty Zipper 
88, first, nice to meet someone so youg takeing a look at a problem..
im not trying to be a wise guy... believe me on this!
88
if your so intelligent, why do you want to get high in the first place?
IMO, thats where your intelect might like to look...
and no rationalizing it!, just a real honest hard look
good wishes 88
rz
Honestly thats a really good question, but I guess the reason I tried all these substances in the first place was out of curiosity, I wanted to see what everything was all about. The reasons I continued my usage was mostly due to self discovery and wanting to learn more about myself as well as my eagerness to learn more about the different perspective and view point these substances give you of the world and for social reasons too, they seem to cause social boundaries to disappear.
Why I drink a bottle of vodka by myself when I originally only intended to have one drink what I don't get. I rarely drink that much anymore even when I'm with other people, but quiting smoking weed I feel anxious and I suppose I drink to calm the anxiety? Even when I stopped for 3 months I still felt rather anxious sometimes. I'm not totally sure what me sober is anymore which is why I want to take a very long break from everything, but it seems like its going to be so hard.