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Sonny called and asked to see me. I went and we met in a neutral area. He was pushing all the "Mommy buttons" in a hard way. I cried a little on the way home...but YEA!!! I was dry eyed by the time I pulled in to the driveway. I was able to see..even as he was doing it..that he was just attempting to manipulate me..and I resisted! I didn't give him any money..even though he played the "I'm so hungry" card. I didn't fork over cash when he said that there was a pair of pants on sale that would be great for interviews..Yeah right!
Funny thing is...almost the whole way home all I could think about was getting here...and getting to the board. For the first time in a very long while I didn't care if Sonny saw me as a good or a bad mom. I know that I am a good mom. I didn't let him guilt me in to doing something that I knew would be bad for me.
I stopped on the way home and got me a Dr. Pepper and some Chedder Chex Mix (my comfort foods) and came straight to the computer. Wah Hoo. His hold is lessening. You should have seen the look in his eyes when the wallet didn't magically come out of the purse to fund him. The hubby says you should see the look on my face.
Oh, I know that I am not out of the woods yet...but I had a minor breakthrough tonight. I was able to ask him why he stole stuff from my house when he left this last time...I was able to ask it without sounding like I was apologizing. I asked a question and I wanted an answer...I didn't get it of course..He didn't do nuthin. Same song..different day to hear it...and I didn't start dancing to it!!
At the end of the conversation I was able to get back in the Jeep and drive myself home. I kissed his cheek...wished him well and left. Just like that. I didn't beg him to stop drinking..I didnt ask him to come home...I didn't ask for any promises that I know he can't/won't keep. Just a hug and I was out of there. Who wheeee.