I felt the same way when I went to my 1st meeting... I wanted to talk about my ABF... and after the meeting one of the ladies pulled me aside and said this is a program about you... not about him... it is to help you find you. I think you should give it one more try. They say that you should go to 6 meeting before you deside if you want to continue. I have found a meeting that is small ( about 5 people) and most of them are older then me and I feel that they have lots of information that will help me.
I hope you give this another try.