Originally Posted by
zoomer 
I do play the tape all the way through and have no wish to throw away over three years of sobriety,but man those cravings get so strong.
First, I want to wish you a life of happiness, marriage is a sacred covenant.
You may want to consider reading today's Big Book Quote.
At three years sober, you are not experiencing craving, contrary to popular belief the phenomena of craving occurs when an alcoholics takes a drink. It sounds like you are experiencing the peculiar mental blank spot-obsession of the mind.
I too wanted to drink many months into sobriety, this was before I knew there was a solution. I worked the steps as they are outlined in the Big Book, had a spiritual awakening, and recovered from alcoholism, and for that I am tremendously grateful.
best wishes to you.