Chandra
I am sorry you are feeling sad. I know it will be painful when he comes over, so why don't you have all his things ready at the door, or on the fron porch if you have one. That way it will be brief.
And have your helmet on in case he comes alone. He may.
If you can connect with other support people right now it might help. Having a friend or family either with you or expecting to see you tonight, would be a good thing.
Sometimes we just go through the motions until it slowly but finally starts to get better.
Hugs