lonely .....and sad
I am sitting here at home and am completely alone. I thought it would be a good thing, it's not. I have cleaned half of the house (saving the rest for something to do tomorow) and did laundry. I was trying to keep my mind ocupied so I didn't think of him...it's not working, all my mind wants to do is cry....I don't want to cry over him. He has mentally and physically (a little) hurt me, I want to hurt him and let him know how it feels but I know he isn't capable of feeling anything right now, he doesn't know how.
He is coming over later to get things. I told him no, I didn't want to be by myself with him. He said he wouldn't do anything, promise!!! Ya well....promises don't mean anything any more and I told him that. He asked if he could bring the x and I said ok. I already told him that the other day. I have nothing against her, she's the only one telling me the truth.
Oh well.......