Hi Sammy - be thankful you had the courage & sense to come to this conclusion. I lurked on here for a couple months trying to get inspired! I'd read the posts for hours at a time, with beer in hand! I had no intentions of actually quitting at first, and then when I tried to stop I couldn't understand why most people were so "cheery", because I sure wasn't. I also thought nothing would ever be fun anymore (holidays, vacations without alcohol?) & life would become so sad and dull. I admit, I have a long way to go, but each day is a little brighter and easier than the last. It's been slow progress for me, because I drank for over 30 years. Don't become discouraged. This is a wonderful place where you can be yourself and tell the truth about what you're going through.